Sabtu, 28 Desember 2013
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Semua pasti akan tertulis , suatu hari nanti .. cuma , udahlah .sekarang fokus aja ke UN , dan penelitian . Aku pasti akan mendoakanmu , selalu .. Meskipun aku sering telat dalam banyak hal , tapi untuk masalah ini ..Aku harus jauh lebih dulu ..Kalo suruh ngomong sekarang itu useless , dan aku pasti nggak akan pernah sanggup , karna pasti itu memperburuk keadaan aja .lagian hubungan anak SMA itu sangat rentan . Sebenernya itu juga terlihat samar-samar , Apa kamu menyukaiku juga ,.. tapi ngga tau kenapa , aku merasa diperlakukan berbeda aja ,meskipun jarang banget yang namanya komunikasi , sialnya itu mungkin hanya perasaanku aja yang keliru ..Udahlah .....Aku lebih baik mempersiapkan diri . sekarang aku bisa apa ? cuman anak SMA kelas 3 , nggapunya apa2 untuk diperdebatkan ..Tapi insyaalah 3-5 tahun lagi ...ya begitulah .Tapi jika 3-5 taun itu kamu mungkin udah dipinang orang lain .. ya sudahlah . itu mungkin takdirmu , lagian siapasih aku .. berani-beraninya ..Ini pertama kalinya aku merasakan hal kayak gini .. cinta pertama yang .. terasa membingungkan . Mungkin saat diperkuliahan nanti aku bertemu banyak wanita yang lebih baik darimu , tapi tetep aja ... Aku tetap mengaggumimu .. Bisakah kamu memberiku kesempatan ? Aku cuma pingin berusaha yang terbaik dari detik saat aku menulis note ini sampai saat itu tiba .Itu karna kamu salahsatu yang telah mengubah hidupku jauh lebih terasa baik . Bismilahirohmanirohim .. Semua kekuatan adalah milikMu , aku hanyalah hambaMu yang lemah . Kau lebih tau apa yang akan terjadi .. ya Allah , ijinkan aku mengubah Takdir , amin .
Kamis, 15 Agustus 2013
Once in a while.You are in my mind .I think about the days that we had .And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more
You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love
Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
You will always gonna be the one
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more
You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love
Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
You will always gonna be the one
Selasa, 13 Agustus 2013
Tuesday at 06.30 AM when cold air through my self here
I feel unusual thing indeed . Feeling really want to move
forward , maybe because of your heart , many experiences with you always deep
in tought . Now I have to take a lecture ownself … today my sepupu called aunt
‘ doughetrs and a grandma has visited house , Altought this is not so vast ,
but really enjoy life here …My house had covered bevore , so the front past has
changed decoration ..
I have
to learn English seriously , I would like to go outside this country , I want
to feel new air .. looking beautiful architecture , and scenery , actually
nature and mount with its forest … I want cycling in japan .. that’s had been
my master plan on 2014 … I only have some little time to learning English . My
wish had to choosen a right way . God , sori if I delay my praying , sori .. It
didn’t order to make you sad , but the environment was so cold , so I did it ,
sori .. hope that you forgive me .. thanks to forgive my sins , thanks .. I want to prey for some , I will try . I will
decrease my hobbies , actually to watch something wrong ..
10.30 AM I have come
to school myself , There are 3 friends had been being there waiting us to
discuss 2 Project , We talk each other and have been forgiving each other … ya
, we have celebrated the muslim’s bigest day ,there are a tradition where They
forgiving their sins or mistake each human … We wearing muslim clothes . is
seems like middle east style . Arabic ….
I’m serious to increase my English skill .. I want a best
place ..in my heart , was covered by yours .. I confuse how to confess
.Remembering when we are on the same class during 2 years , it is’nt enough to
enjoy with you , I will fight with another boys who want same thing like me …
Hi ,
“why” is a title of this song , arranged by second hand serenade , this is my
feeling to you .. To life during class without you was a trouble , maybe
because of my mind that always thingking to you . This is aren’t easy anymore
.. why aren’t easy …….. because i ….you are my first love .
I’m on
the sleeping room when write this , with cold air that made by propeller
rotating above my body .. Broken heart …Why did you change ? why ? why….? Even
meeting , when we walk , we often see each eyes .. seriously .. This is aren’t
easy to be forgotten.. embrasing to write this , don’t me ? please don’t
force my self to hard .. … make your
heart smile is enought for me ..
I*** , why you have changed ?....
00.50 PM .. Never see you again , no imagine . your favorite
song , I don’t know , I don’t know what your hobbies , favorit foods ,
activities , type , character is … I’m a student who has been waiting you until
now .. what’s your name ? oh shit , that cannot change anything .. when we talk
something you always on serious face , don’t you feel it ?angry , or anything
that you will did yourself ..Hearing what my friends said about you make me
down .. down . do .. wn .-
My
first love will come to me , won’t her ? I know , I know it won’t .. but I
believe a feeling.. heart to heart . now I being confused with yours .. ah ,wtf
.. ar..
What’s going on my mind , I just connect to my hands , so
that it works as usual .. push keyboard and write my feeling … Are you talking
to me .. you are a litle young white perfect girl in my mind .. don’t you see
my feeling in your heart ? This because my frustration feeling .. felling
inside and sign in this PC …
Check my readiness , hapinees . is it fine ,
allright .. I want you to see my different character after we go toward this
holiday .. this is holiday , I’m very sad and so many mind about you , I miss
you , I suffer a thing . become trouble in me . have watched Korean drama
increase my feeling about you , it seem to you , don’t you think .. in
acquintant with you on first and second grade so shy .. I shy with my
activities . I’m stupid before , ..
My friend have told me how your
feeling about me was , he said that you like me , but “ no I don’t , its just a
friend , no more “ SHIT .. I’m liar ,I deceive my self … I want to said that ,
but I shy , so asshame , felling that we aren’t match and fair .. This is the
trouble …..
13.33 pm I write for
3rd ,
Remember , when I repair your propeller stick . that is one
of my happiness , I find your propeller
outside the class , that’s above the chair .. I get it and repair with high
spirit , so hot with soljer .. the day
after , I bring it back to your bag without presmission , because …because I
shy , and I didn’t want to be a hero to you . I believe that someday , you will
know how much I love you ... do you know ? when is the last , hoping that you
realize that it was my treatment , won’t you think that it was me ? ….
Hi , my
first love .. here is realy difficult to forget you .. this less my energy . I
have to work through now .. I promise you won’t regret if you are with me ,
until the day after tomorrow …
18.00 PM .. why I did it for 4th -- ?
Oke this is enough today , recently I did wrong … when I thinking
girls who have beauty , sexy, no doubt I ……shit . what is on my mind , recall
medical officer it don’t change anything .. so I decide to repair myself with
my believing on you , that’s enought ,
we can say “ the power of love “ .. you know ,I …. Suffer yours . Is this the
end of my feeling ………
Sabtu, 11 Mei 2013
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