Kamis, 15 Agustus 2013

Once in a while.You are in my mind .I think about the days that we had .And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more
You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love
Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
You will always gonna be the one

Selasa, 13 Agustus 2013



Tuesday at 06.30 AM when cold air through my self here
I feel unusual thing indeed . Feeling really want to move forward , maybe because of your heart , many experiences with you always deep in tought . Now I have to take a lecture ownself … today my sepupu called aunt ‘ doughetrs and a grandma has visited house , Altought this is not so vast , but really enjoy life here …My house had covered bevore , so the front past has changed decoration ..
                I have to learn English seriously , I would like to go outside this country , I want to feel new air .. looking beautiful architecture , and scenery , actually nature and mount with its forest … I want cycling in japan .. that’s had been my master plan on 2014 … I only have some little time to learning English . My wish had to choosen a right way . God , sori if I delay my praying , sori .. It didn’t order to make you sad , but the environment was so cold , so I did it , sori .. hope that you forgive me .. thanks to forgive my sins , thanks ..  I want to prey for some , I will try . I will decrease my hobbies , actually to watch something wrong ..
 10.30 AM I have come to school myself , There are 3 friends had been being there waiting us to discuss 2 Project , We talk each other and have been forgiving each other … ya , we have celebrated the muslim’s bigest day ,there are a tradition where They forgiving their sins or mistake each human … We wearing muslim clothes . is seems like middle east style . Arabic ….
I’m serious to increase my English skill .. I want a best place ..in my heart , was covered by yours .. I confuse how to confess .Remembering when we are on the same class during 2 years , it is’nt enough to enjoy with you , I will fight with another boys who want same thing like me …
                Hi , “why” is a title of this song , arranged by second hand serenade , this is my feeling to you .. To life during class without you was a trouble , maybe because of my mind that always thingking to you . This is aren’t easy anymore .. why aren’t easy …….. because i ….you are my first love .
                I’m on the sleeping room when write this , with cold air that made by propeller rotating above my body .. Broken heart …Why did you change ? why ? why….? Even meeting , when we walk , we often see each eyes .. seriously .. This is aren’t easy to be forgotten.. embrasing to write this , don’t me ? please don’t force  my self to hard .. … make your heart smile is enought for me ..
I*** , why you have changed ?....
00.50 PM .. Never see you again , no imagine . your favorite song , I don’t know , I don’t know what your hobbies , favorit foods , activities , type , character is … I’m a student who has been waiting you until now .. what’s your name ? oh shit , that cannot change anything .. when we talk something you always on serious face , don’t you feel it ?angry , or anything that you will did yourself ..Hearing what my friends said about you make me down .. down . do .. wn .-
                My first love will come to me , won’t her ? I know , I know it won’t .. but I believe a feeling.. heart to heart . now I being confused with yours .. ah ,wtf .. ar..
What’s going on my mind , I just connect to my hands , so that it works as usual .. push keyboard and write my feeling … Are you talking to me .. you are a litle young white perfect girl in my mind .. don’t you see my feeling in your heart ? This because my frustration feeling .. felling inside and sign in this PC …
                 Check my readiness , hapinees . is it fine , allright .. I want you to see my different character after we go toward this holiday .. this is holiday , I’m very sad and so many mind about you , I miss you , I suffer a thing . become trouble in me . have watched Korean drama increase my feeling about you , it seem to you , don’t you think .. in acquintant with you on first and second grade so shy .. I shy with my activities . I’m stupid before , ..
                                My friend have told me how your feeling about me was , he said that you like me , but “ no I don’t , its just a friend , no more “ SHIT .. I’m liar ,I deceive my self … I want to said that , but I shy , so asshame , felling that we aren’t match and fair .. This is the trouble …..
13.33 pm  I write for 3rd ,
Remember , when I repair your propeller stick . that is one of my happiness  , I find your propeller outside the class , that’s above the chair .. I get it and repair with high spirit , so hot with soljer  .. the day after , I bring it back to your bag without presmission , because …because I shy , and I didn’t want to be a hero to you . I believe that someday , you will know how much I love you ... do you know ? when is the last , hoping that you realize that it was my treatment , won’t you think that it was me ? ….
                Hi , my first love .. here is realy difficult to forget you .. this less my energy . I have to work through now .. I promise you won’t regret if you are with me , until the day after tomorrow …
18.00 PM .. why I did it for 4th -- ?
Oke this is enough today , recently I did wrong … when I thinking girls who have beauty , sexy, no doubt I ……shit . what is on my mind , recall medical officer it don’t change anything .. so I decide to repair myself with my believing on you  , that’s enought , we can say “ the power of love “ .. you know ,I …. Suffer yours . Is this the end of my feeling ………